she called when i was already in bed. i should have known, given our conversation only earlier that afternoon, what the news was. the test was positive. after approximately a month of marriage, my baby sister was pregnant. i felt the conflicted feelings expressed through her tears barely brushed the depth of conflict in my own heart. as we hung up, the tears flowed freely. i had been trying to get pregnant for almost a year. as a healthy, then twenty-six year old, i never dreamed i would have problems. after months of temperature taking in wee hours of the morning, drugs that altered my ability to think of anything but the hormones raging inside me, i could not believe that kara was having a honeymoon baby. i did my best to be there for her, as she was not immediately thrilled with the news. i'm sure i failed in so so many ways. i am happy that now, all is behind us.
i have a sweet, perfect baby niece, isabella claire, affectionately known as bella claire. i was endlessly surprised at how quickly i fell in love with her...and how much closer i felt to kara. there is nothing more beautiful in the world than a new mother and her child.
bella claire's birthday was quite dramatic, but she's a healthy, incredibly happy almost FOUR month old now. sweet husband dan got me a video camera for christmas and we attempted to record some of the events of kara, rick and bella claire's big day.
